Category: Propane Man Confidential

What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?

I was raised on guilt and grief and it has done nothing for me then make me feel guilty.

Whenever I feel like I have an opportunity to benefit myself, I always have that feeling of guilt.

Can I do better than this?

Is this what I am settling for..?

What about my dreams?

Is this what my parents wanted for me?

Am I letting my family down?

These are hard questions that everyone has to deal with and it only gets worse when you ask yourself, “What would younger me think about who I am today…”

If you abandon guilt… you will be free of the judgement that you know.

If that sets you free.

Abandon that guilt.

Live free of your past but only if you want to push forward.

I have been held back by guilt and it’s the biggest regret I have ever had.

Don’t let guilt hold you back, you can not redeem yourself with the weights of the past holding you back.

What principles define how you live?

It is my families motto and the one principle I will never give up on because it means the same thing.

We have endured, we never give up. We have endured and we will will keep on enduring.

Never give up because tomorrow will bring a new day of possibilities, ideas, inspirations.

Fuimus is the one principle of how I live because it gives me hope that tomorrow will be better than today, and that yesterday will be a day to celebrate because we have endured!!!….

What have you been putting off doing? Why?

I do not support, advocate or suggest anyone do this. It can be dangerous to your health but it is something I have always found to be productive if handled appropriately and insightful.

I have been putting it off because I am too old to be doing that anymore.

The toll it has on my body whenever I do it stings with fatigue.

In my 20’s I was able to stay up for days at a time but I never did anything productive but experience the mind altering state of sleep deprivation.

In my 30’s and up until now I have always made sure that depriving myself of sleep meant that I was committing myself to completing an important task.

Lately I have not been able to do so, but I feel that if given the right circumstances and motivation that I can.

Sometimes you need to drive yourself crazy to understand how to complete the journey.

What’s something you would attempt if you were guaranteed not to fail.

Well it has been a while since I posted on here and it is all because of a conflicting reason.

But that is not important.

This Friday, October 10th 2025 I will be attending NYC Comic-Con and I intend on going in full character. As the Hank Hill Cosplayer/Impersonator.

I would like to think that I am guaranteed not to fail.

But the person who is accompanying me is not reliable.

I have gone into many events where it felt like the blind leading the blind.

But this one feels different.

In one hand I am going into this with over a half a Million people following me on Social Media. I can never tell who is following me or if anyone will even care if I am there.

In the other hand, over 5k people following me on social media, I have over a Million views and comments and yet I am still skeptical.

I know that I am guaranteed to fail this Friday but I will head into it and try to make it a success.

What are your top ten favorite movies?

1. The Blues Brotherts
2. The Lord of the Rings, Fellowship of the Ring.
3. Waking Life
4. The Goonies
5. Dazed and Confused.
6. J.F.K.
7. My Cousin Vinnie
8. The Shawshank Redemption
9. The Hatful 8
10. Tombstone

What do you enjoy most about writing?

When you write you have a blank, clean slate and it is up to you as to what you are going to do with it.

It does not matter if you’re writing a poem, a story, an article, blog or some boring report.

You are communicating with someone.

It may be one person, it may be a million, it may be to yourself.

But you wrote it.

You took the time to use your brain to physically write something down.

Do you remember everything you have ever written?

Probably not.

But the things you did want to remember that you have wrote. You remember forever.

It does not matter who you communicate with when you write as long as you communicate with yourself.

If you can communicate with yourself through writing then you can communicate with anyone.

That is what I enjoy most about writing.

Create an emergency preparedness plan.

If you are the master of the fire then you decide what burns.

What is a word you feel that too many people use?

No one understands it is all too different for each individual to understand what another person means.

You may just perceive it as a word but do we all take into consideration on how we say the word and it sounds to another person?

The meaning of the word may be universal but is that sound of the word universal?

If you ask someone if they “understand” do they?

Or does it trigger something in another person because they have some negative association with the word, because it is a word that we use to bridge gaps in communication but we never take into consideration if the word is as universally known as we perceive it is.

People should understand that the word “understand” does no mean the same thing that it may mean to others.

It is a tragedy of how distorted communication has become.

A word that is supposed to communicate resolution has become a word that enhances conflict.

Which activities make you lose track of time?

I have spent a lot of time these past two months writing, thinking, reading and creating.

I always loose track of time when I feel like I am in a “groove” and I don’t want to stop.

I recently made #twitch affiliate and I have been preparing to launch a successful Twitch Stream. And that means a lot of writing, thinking, reading and creating.

I am going to loose track of a lot of time doing this and I hope that you will allow continue to read my Blog, as I embark on this journey.

How do you practice self-care?

It is kind of like practicing self-care because I have to be healthy to respond to my orders and give it my best.

It provides me with self-care because it gives me something to look forward too. Everytime I receive an order I get excited because it makes me feel like someone is depending on me to make them laugh and smile.

And I want to give them that.

It is self-care to my mental health because I enjoy doing it so much, and it makes me feel like my life is worth something.

I will give every request and order my all.

But what I really want is for Businesses to reach out to me, so that I can advertise and endorse their products.

I have a talent and it is about time that I let people know that I am open for business.

I tell you what.

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